'That'...

What's on your mind tonight?

A sudden emptiness that fills your heart? Oxymoron but don't we get that at times?

Chasing after so many things to find that when you come to the end of the road, it's futile. What or who can really fill the void?

Perhaps an answer that you may never find. Or perhaps an answer you chose to ignore, thinking that once you get what you are after, you will be fulfilled.

At least you may be chasing blindly, with a hope of being fulfilled. That may not be too may, with one being occupied by the processes of chasing the clouds.

So what if you know that you are chasing the clouds? That truth will not release you at all. In fact, it may let you sink in deeper into the void that you are trying to fill.

Solutions? Create another false front to cover up the illusion that you created.

Does it work? Perhaps not, unless you are that good in self deceiving yourself. You are the best liar to yourself. You created goals, dreams and ideas.

You seek to achieve it, with distinction. You failed and sunken deep within. You get depressed and blame the world for failing you. You grew bitter and tight up.

Perhaps you look at the light; seeing the next morning to be another sunshine day. Tomorrow will be a better day! You firmly believe in your words. Your words failed you tremendously. The world sucks!

How can you live another day? without pain? You can't. You are handicapped from your own optimistic view. You handicapped yourself from the bitterness that spawn within you.

Where is the hope? Where is the sunshine after the rain?

You have no where to turn to... You wait. And wait...

In the hope of that... 'That' which you do not know, 'That' which you wished it was coming, 'That' which you wished it will rescue you, 'That'... what is that 'That'?

'That', you wish it is...