An Improvement???!!

decided to read my blog out of sudden while 'hunting' Rena's blog. Still can't find it (sorry LN if you happened to read this, i reformatted my pc and all bookmarks are erased).

the main point: I managed to 'spot' my grammatical errors in my previous blog.

I found it horrendous and disdained that my grammar was that bad. i still am but improving as time goes.

somehow, i did not consciously worked on the improvement, but it somehow hit the sub-conscious mind and Wahlah... I improved.

I wished i had put in effort during school days and get it all right, but i did not. Still, i don't think it's too late to start now.

My Rejected Soul

Rejection comes upon me and my heart

My soul cries out in sorrow and despair

Why your face turns away from me?

And you heard, when I call

I turned and call upon You

You comforted and embraced me

You reject me not, like man does

And You heard, when I call

I wondered where the broken line is

Why and what caused the tear

I am deeply disturbed and my soul troubled

How, then, can be tear be mend?

I turn my focus upon He who loves

He calls me by my name softly by my ear

My love is all you need and fear not of rejection

For I was there when I was rejected

He keeps Me close.

I'm back... but who's reading anyway..???

Yes... that sounds pathetic because it's pathetic.

There are many things I want to write in here, but I can't. Don't ask me why... the reason is bigger that I am.

Nevertheless, I still can share some other mundane stuff.

Started my training for next year's biathalon. Yes yes... I started with my short run, real short indeed. Timing for last year was 1hr 55mins. I want to go below 1hr 30mins.

I think it's possible, just gotta work hard. Hopefully I start on my swim soon.

What else???

Gosh... I just can't share on so many things. It's good and bad.

Oh well... I'll stop here then!

I'm back...!!!

The fact is... 'no one' reads this blog. I don't 'advertise' it nor do it tell all my friends so why the heck am I putting an entry anyway?

Doesn't matter eh. I write just because I can and I'm able to.

It's been almost two years since I add an entry. Well, that real long man or was it not?

Time flies...

I actually forgot my blog's addy and that I did had a blog page. It wasn't until my so-called 'English Teacher' asked me if I had a blog when I sent her my 'homework'.

She asked me if I had a blog (via email) and I was like... I think I do. So I went around hunting for my blog addy. And yes, I forgot my blog's addy and sign in name. It took me more the 30mins hunting around, testing & searching the correct blog addy that I eventually 'found' my blog's addy and sent it to my 'English Teacher'.

Part of your life (or things) slipped you by if one lost the awareness. I didn't remember that I had a blog till Michelle (my English Teacher) asked me, and I certainly didn't take note about it even when my friends mentioned that they are going to blog their lives.

Why do I even bother to blog 'again'??

No idea. Like I mentioned above, no one reads this blog.

Perhaps I'm just seeking the 'attention' from myself. :P

It's been a long while... and I'll be back eh...

With Love

how or what???

reading blogs that post topic about love and relationships really makes me feel that many people out there seems to be ignorant about love.

I'm not an expert in the field nor have I been through many relationships to say that I'm experience.

A parallel analogy that I find it quite close to how to have a successful relationship. I think...

Many years back, in fact, during my school days, my English teacher once shared with my class on studying. Successful people clears their exams at their first shot. She goes on to explain, taking 'O' levels as an example... People who did well in their 'O's did it the 1st and only one time. Taking 'O' levels a few more time doesn't make one to be experience and excelled better than those who took only 1 time.

It's pretty true when it comes to relationship. There are marriages that is so-called 'Arranged Marriage'. Relationship 'blossomed' after being together, or to say... married. Many survived and moved on to be happy and enjoyed a blissful marriage. I'm not saying it's across the board.

How then, in this society, can we achieve that???

Read my fren's blog recently and there were questions thrown to her which makes me feel that it's quite mundane. Of the questions being asked, most of it is about a 'want', the way the question is being phrase, in fact, I can jolly well say that even the 'giver''s motivation comes from a want.

Do we not give anymore??? As freely as we should??? If the 'giving' is motivated from a 'want', where then, is the spirit of love???

Below are the 'stupid' questions asked:

1) ...to a guy friend who ask you what a man must do to make the girl he loves happy?
2) ...to a girl who is in love with someone she does not really trust?
3) ...to a good friend who prefers to leave her life to Fate, and believes she's meant to be lonely and loveless?
4) ...to a sister who is hurting from the loss of one love, and confused about the love from another?


Successful relationships usually are success during the 1st try. You can have many relationships before, but what I mean is that when the right one has comes, usually it takes 1 go at it and end of story.

Breaking up, then patching up again. Broke off and comes back together again, boy... it's better to live life without each other. Get what I mean????

And can we consider that a person who has numerous relationships is very experienced and knows how to handle one?? Think again. If that person proclaimed (I shall put it in masculine voice but applies to female eh) he is experience and knows how to handle relationship well, how then, does he still has a lot of relationships and not yet settle down???

Think again eh!!!

Many of all these relationships problem and disagreement comes for a want. "I want" and never "I love". It is only from a want, that one desires blind one's eyes to see the real deal.

With thoughts on others, it would be like, "what would my partner wants to have for dinner??"
or "what would make my partner happy??" instead of "how to make my partner happy?".

Everyone who is in relationships and has been with the partner, somehow or rather, knows the person well enough. If you don't, you better go do some soul searching. Hence the question would be 'What?' rather than 'How?'. Yes it sounds the same, but think again.. if 'What' = 'How', they would be the same word and spelling.

Have you showered love to your love ones today???

Got a...

wat happened when you suddenly realised that you out there all alone???

how would you feel???

Would you:

A) Shout out hoping that someone would hear you
B) Frantically runs around searching for another living soul
C) Stay put and wait

In our lives, i believe we all come across this stage. It came back. Alone in the crowd, some how or rather... communications with people seems difficult and frequency dont' seem to be in tune.

What happens next???
i guess it's the point of time where i'm stuck and especially with people. Comms down... which is one of the fearful thing in time of war. You can't reach out niether can you be rescue. You walk... you run... hoping to meet friendly forces, best still if it's from your battalion or your company...

That's when you know you'll be safe... and you sit down any asked,

"Got a cigarette...???"

a state of equilibrium

What happen when you take one plate of a balance away??? The other side falls of course...

To be at equilibrium, it has to have the plate, of the same weight. Where the pointer will be at zero. That's a good thing, for the balance that is.

It is often how fast we forgot this simple equipment can teach us many of life's values. Balance, is something thing that many don't realise how important it is in life. And how that equal weight of the plate can be a metaphor for many things.

Like love, responsibility, eagerness, rewards etc... How much rewards equals to how much effort puts in. How much tenderness you get from your partner is how much love you put in (though some may not agree). You'll get my point if you read on.

Often than not, the balance tends to dip on one side. That's where the ambiguous statement comes in. To reach a state of equilibrium, one has to study the amount of weight that was put up on the opposite side, carefully add weights or to slowly remove the weights on your side of the plate. It cant be more nor less... if equilibrium is to be reach.

So how then, does this becomes a metaphor for our lives???

In relationships, many don't understand how come they don't work out with each other. That's probably because many don't want to listen or are not sensitive to the symptoms that your partner is giving out. Or have you not been noticing that you are putting in too much??? Not getting that desire 'rewards' could be that your side of the balance is dipping...

Think about it!